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2011-10-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

Shall not cry whatever the outcome is. Possible?

2011-10-03T00:01:00.002+08:00

It is really sad to accept the fact that the one you loved, no longer needs you. Worst is.. he finds you detesting and a nuisance. Once treated like a precious gem, but now.. wished so much that he could leave my sight. (my claws instead, if situation is thought this bad). I loved you, actually still loving you.

Love is selfish. I dont really understand what this short line means. If placed in my situation, i would view it this way: I want my loved ones to be with me all the time. All the time, i really mean it. Moral support when i'm emotionally weak. Physical presence/ accompany when i'm lonely.

Actually, i've experienced this. But that was when he was afraid i would go. This time, he no longer wants me. I dont know why. How can two people in love get sick of each other? Why? What is the reason?

He no longer love you. He is sick of you. He finds you no longer attractive anymore. He realized you are not his cup of tea. But that took A year and 7 month to realise it. It is very hurtful. I still believe that you are the one.

But i would respect your decision.

I just want you to make a wise decision that you will never regret.

Somehow, i know you had already made a decision a long time ago...

Being together, willingness. Forced relationship will not bear a fruit. None is obliged to serve one another. It is the love that explains the action.

2011-07-19T14:05:00.002+08:00

It is really good to be loved. :) at least for me. I really appreciate the things that has been done for me. How could i ever repay you? You are really the best person/man i've known so far.

You never stop, and that's very impressive and determined of you. At times, i really wished i was you. The sprite of not giving up even though the door is only a gap away to closing.

anyway! i'm very disturb now. By the fact that they are calling me non stop, just like loan sharks. what should i do?

Can i do well for A levels?

if yes, how? given the time now. i really dont have much time. like 4 more months to A levels. OKAY! so how should i plan?

4 subjects:

Math

MOB

Chem

currently, i need to work on math and mob since these are the two that can be easily mastered. GP needs to be consistent and Chem is just the killer. Actually if i really put in 10times more effor im giving now, i can do Chem.

So.. how should i put them in order?

Math, GP, CHEM everyday in school.

MOB at home?

I think that is possible.

soo.. giving 3 hours for each subjects? intense revision?okay! i'll start the intense revision next week which is on the 25th. meanwhile, revision should be getting ready for intense revision.

math- pure math (follow class)

2011-07-12T18:41:00.002+08:00

reflection

am i in the wrong? did i accuse you?

1) i'm unhappy about you not being able to speak to me like i wished a lovely boyfriend would do. although you tried starting a conversation (but not continuing it), it sounded forced and not what you would love to do. No passion.

e.g. in trains where you got nothing to say and i'm just sitting there for someone to talk to me. i want you to chat with me because i have been playing a guys role by talking to you and keep you accompanied. but when will you do that?

2) you scolded me, insulted me by saying i dont use my brain to think - what is the brain there for. and you said i'm selfish.

my stand: selfish. you are the selfish one. you said you make changes but perhaps too insignificant to be observed. this means that your effort is too little, which is equilvant to not doing any change. If you dont see any improvement in our relationship, why are you satisfied with your changes (which is insignifcant) made? This shows that you dont feel you need to change. and also shows that you are changing unwilllingly and that once you change, your job is done.

i really dont know why you dont see the picture. You really dont want to commit. and by just giving me money it doesnt mean i;m happy. True that i'm currently financially tight but im not unhappy due to my financial situation do you get it? you dont understand me. no! you dont understand what a girl wants. really. i really want you to get another girlfriend and see how that girl run away.

i cannot have my own thinking when im with you because you never support my views. you are always in conflict with me. and usually after much debate, you gave in not because you admit defeat but because you dont want to worsen the tension.

shows: you are sober enough to stop the argument but still do not and will not understand and support my views. why wont you support me? i have no one behind me. not even my boyfriend. see how pathetic can i be?

I supported you in most of the things you, i wouldnt say everything because im not certain of that. Even though im not happy with your decision, i still go ahead with your decision because i believe you know what you are doing and i respect you. what about you? i can understand the respect part but what about the believing part?? why cant you believe in me and trust me? others can doubt me but why must you be the one to doubt me?

You are really not a gentleman.

and talking abt being irresponsible. I really loathe you for calling me that. just because i choose not to go to your social night? So you really think i'm that sort? good! can really see how much you believe in me.

I'm still going dumb ass. now i have trouble finding a suitable wear for the social night. can you help? no! you dont even know how formal is it. what if i overdress or underdress? will you care? YOU DONT! because you just care about yourself. You think it is easy? hair? skin care? make up? heels? dress? bag? clutch? purse? do you know any of these?

and just because you will get extras punishment or whatever, you push all your blame on me? and you can even scold me irresonsible. dint you even think that it is because you made me so angry, confused and disappointed that i refuse to go with you?? never think that it is your doings that made me make that decision?

have you even think that it is your fault?

To reflect,

i really feel that im at fault too. For not knowing and understanding that i cannot throw my temper at you. If i tell you all these calmly, maybe you will understand. but i;m afraid that you wont catch what i want to tell you.

because from pass experiences, you must be told what to do or change and not base on what i expressed to you. im just disappointed. really confused too. becasuse i really dont want you to catch what i said and really talk to me. i cannot take it if you were to continue being like this. i really want to be with you, but not the current you.

2011-07-10T14:18:00.002+08:00

I really cannot comprehen the way you treat me.

True! you dont scold me for no reason, you dont hit me, you dont disrecpect me. That very normal for a person to be. If that is considered good and lucky, i wished i never known you. Really.

I'm just a girl who needs accompany - to share my joy, sorrows, fear, pain. But you never been by my side when all these happen. Why? you behave the same when i told you all these. Too busy to improve our relationship? BUSY? even visting me at my place is tough. I have to drag you to my place just to show my parents that you care to visit me and my family. In fact you dont even care. you only care for yourself.

Which girl travel all the way to visit her boyfriend and does all the talking, planning all the activities. Ya, there is. In the hospital when the boyfriend is lying on the hospital bed unconsiously. true that i dont plan for the activities but you dont plan too. It has always been going to movies, dinner, home. That it. for the past 1year and 4 months. Can you take it?

Scenario 1: in train (noon)

When i say i'm tired and want some rest, you said okay and picked out your itouch and start playing. wow! how gentleman. so i rest on other guys' shoulder huh? you feel less stress because you can finally play your stupid itouch? ya, your reason given: you dont wanna disturb me. How sweet right? Stupid ass. Let your girlfriend's head hang in the air to sleep.. how happy can you be??

scenario 2: walking home (night)

There is actually no talking nor chatting between us while walking back home. claimed to send me home, but not side by side nor hand in hand.

I'm infront and he's behind. No talking, behaving as though we are in the library right? How great. come on ppl can even think that we are strangers. How sweet ah to have a boyfriend like that.

scenario 3: Taking to your own boyfriend (on streets, on trains, during shopping, breakfast,lunch,dinner)

To be honest, he dont like to talk. I think he's tongue is too precious to move. either no answers or one word answer like "hmmm", "okay", "anything", "no", "that's not what i meant". COME ON! GP TUTOR NEVER TEACH YOU THE WAY TO ANSWER? dont you know how to elaborate? I hate people not responding to me. Oh, at times, he doesnt answer or answer after 5 seconds because he's too engage in his game which he dont find a need to stop when talking to me.

girl: "are you hungry?"

**after 5 seconds**

boy:" huh, what did you say"

girl: " are you hungry? i'm hungry, i wanna eat. where shall we eat?"

***after 3 seconds***

boy:" huh"

**after 3 seconds***

boy:" anything.. ahh.. aiyo, dont angry la. okay, i stopped playing now. what you want to have?"

cool ah? not once, not twice, not thrice. i dont know how many times. like 60% of the time is like this. maybe 30% of the time we are arguing.

can you take it?? i bet you would give up 6 months after being with him. dont worry, i'm dying soon if this continues. He doesnt learn from all these happenings. because he thinks it is not serious enough for him to look into this matter and change it. He feels that i'm the one at fault so the one who needs to change is not him but me.

2011-06-06T20:28:00.004+08:00

A LEVELS!

june hols. what am i doing ah?
at least i know i'm not doing this alone now. :):)
yay! universal studio, here i go. *although it was open for some time already, and not tt exciting anymore. but! i still wanna go there to smell the air* :D

yay yay yay! provided i do well for all my H2.
possible?
well, lets see the power of MOTIVATION VIA KL. :)

as for kl, hmm..
10 days field trip, hope you can do well.
you can do it. so fit. hee

oh! ya happy 22nd birthday, danny!

2011-06-06T20:28:00.001+08:00

2010-12-25T01:52:00.003+08:00

I like taking pictures because i can capture memorable moments.
I like to eat because that is what my mouth is suppose to do.
I like to talk because it helps ease the tense situation.

But it seems like you dont appreciate.
and that's sad! really. :(:(:( i think i can just cry for 10 years.

I have a list of christmas wish:
1) to love you more
2) to love you even more
3) to love you twice as much as yesterday
4) to love you more than i can imagine
5) to love you unexplanability.
6) still to love you.

Good night!
Merry Christmas.

2010-12-25T01:47:00.002+08:00

24th dec 2010
went swimming again, with KL at YCK. made dinner.. but no one eats. so hurtful. :( not even trying them. Anyway, there's other issues more hurtful than this.

i'm lose once more. how wonderful.
where's the map?
:( i'm such a bully. am i? I care for you, showing my care is another thing.

25th dec 2010
merry christmas!

2010-12-23T00:41:00.002+08:00

Peep peep!

Tuesday, 21 dec 2010
KL finally tried "little boss". haa! and regretted trying thier claypot rice. I find it okay though. His expection so high ah. =x hee. Fried dumping was nice lehhh. haa. :)

Wednesday, 22 dec 2010
Well, which is today!
Hee, i was suppose to go swimming with KL today in the morning but was too tired. Guess it is most probably due to me sleeping late the night before. =x We even agreed to complete 30 laps. . . haaa! funny.

BUTTT! we went shopping today instead. (in the afternoon). Bought Hazel a spongebob T-shirt. Of course, not forgetting me, i also happen to have a T-shirt. :):) Had xin wang HK for dinner. hmmm, dint really like. Come to think of it.. i feel bloated already. haha =x Couldnt really find the shoe that KL want, but i think he has already decided which pair of shoes he wants to buy. Aiyooo! Finding shoes for guys is really a tall task! Such a pain. Rrrr. but i like. hee xD!

Went to the Helix bridge as well as MBS like finally!!! Been wanting to go.. just to smell the air there. hahaa! V sua ku la. but, cant help loh. hee. took a few photos. OH!! KL's secret is revealed. he is afraid of camera. Took so LITTLE PHOTO WITH HIM! not fair. =(

Was tired, took bus to Dhoby Gaunt, HSM. :):):):)

p.s woot~ bought earings too. :) dirt cheap.

2010-12-20T01:22:00.002+08:00

opps! NEARLY FORGOT.

STEAMBOAT WAS FUNNN! About 12 were there: Randy, SJ, Steph, Deon, Fadz, Adeva, HM, HM's friend, and i-dont-know-your-name friend, Anil, Edward and Shafiq. haa!

Food, games, "tommy", chivas, chili.( yucks!) haha! Lots of laughter! xD. but i had a bad headache and left early. Guess most of them stayed overnight at Randy's place. Met KL and had a little talk and supper with him. Home sweet home.

p.s Highlight of the steamboat was Deon's losing a "who,what,huh" game. and HM's friend guess a hundred thumbs up. haha!

2010-12-20T01:14:00.002+08:00

Wooot! long time since we swim together!

Mum dint go down into the pool though. But dad joined us. Memories~ so fun. I feel like a kid once more. :):):) Jalan Besar swimming complex was beautify! Really. Although the pool wasnt the Olympic size, it did affect our mood. Anyway, the sun today was strong and Hazel and i did get a little tan.

Well, just had supper at Mac. Bonding with family. so fun.
swimming tomorrow morning again. woot! i love it. good night.

2010-12-18T01:28:00.002+08:00

I really find this really funny. hahahaha! sorry aaron.

2010-12-18T01:16:00.002+08:00

Feeling much better. :):):)

peepopeepoooee. Hope kana will be better :D.

Well, planning to go swimming again, but this time with my family. Maybe at Jalan Besar cos' it's easier for us to settle our meal - so near coffeeshops. hee =x should i ask KL along? hmm.. see how la.

steamboatt! YAY!~ bring prawns over tomorrow. weee~

SJ said Randy bought too much veggie. haha! Poor Fadz :( haha. He hates veggie to the maxxxx. hahha. xD.

FOOD FOOD FOOD. YIPPY.

*no time for diet. muhahaaa!*

2010-12-17T17:37:00.004+08:00

YAY! steamboat soon. It will turn out great, hopefully. :)

2010-12-17T01:51:00.002+08:00

well. i haven been feeling right. :(:(
i think i should just give up, after holding it for 9 months.

14 Dec 2010 - Tuesday
Bought swimming costume at last. have been borrowing from PY. Sorry for bothering you, and Thank you. =)

15 dec 2010 - wednesday
Met up early and went swimming with KL and PY. It was rather a sway day. Yck swimming complex was reserved and will only be opened to public at 1pm. Of course, Yishun swimming complex was not an option because it was closed till 2.30pm for weekly maintance. I thought I was clever enough to check the dates and timing of pool closure before heading to any swimming pools, but never did i think that yck will be closed to the public as it was reserved by some swimming events. hee. xD. Therfore, we must always HAVE a back-up plan for every plans we make.

Sat outside yck swimming complex thinkings about which swimming complex to go to. (We were all kinda lost. Mixed feelings - irritated, disappointed) At last, Bishan Swimming Complex. And I called Lisa for help. TY! :) before that, i was thinking about going to friends' condo for a free swim. haha. =x

Swam for about an hour - cos' the sun is out, KL dint want to get too tanned, neither do PY. they were tired too. Obviously i still want to soak in the pool. haha! I CANT SWIM AS FAST AS THEM. RRRRrrr. #$%^& hee

Ate at bishan, had bubble tea. Went to his place to rest, felt asleep though. Home sweet home.

16 December 2010 - Thursday
Helped out at dad's restaurant. Rather busy and sweat a little too. Wished that business will always be busy year-round. hee. xD!

2010-12-13T19:59:00.001+08:00

i'm always confused; i still love you as much as yesterday.

2010-11-27T15:17:00.002+08:00

unhappy.
i wished this year could end fast.

end of year reflection:
seemed so long since i did this refection thingy. i realise this is one of the toughest year i had gone through. loved ones are doing okay, no big issues. just a few ups and downs.. but there're fine.

concentration is a hard thing to do. i really have to learn to take control of myself. i enjoy too much this year, really.

1) too dependent
2) too lazy
3) became too fat
4) too ignorant
5) too stupid.

YES! became too dumb. i haven been studying. i wanted to start but.. i waited for tomorrow and.. tomorrow never come.

why why why? why have i change to this form??
2 days later, my last A level paper.
and i have done nothing, yes, NOTHING about it.
why? i dont know. my brain just doesnt want to think.

i feel that i'm like an angry machine or a crying machine.
at times, a crazy (as in lunatic) machine, who goes around being mad at people for no reason.

Not that my irregular period cause me to be like this.
just that i'm not satisfied in what i'm doing now.
i chose this path, this route..
am i regretting?
oh no!. no no no.. this route is just a test.

i really have to start thinking about what i want. really want.

:( i miss my old me.

2010-11-27T15:09:00.002+08:00

i wonder at times how would you then take care of a baby in the near future??
i'm afraid.

just because you failed once, doesnt mean you'll fail again.
LOSER.

2010-11-08T20:12:00.003+08:00

Do you know?
It is very irritating. You can say that i am demanding But at least, i said again - at least! OPEN YOUR EYES, or SEE WITH YOUR HEART AND BRAIN. cant you see something is wrong? Not only that you are blind, but also retarted. i mean. i lack vocabulary, you see.

Things goes wrong. You dint realise. Yet encouraging it to continue striving. eh come on la... forest already burning and you're still fanning it. AINT YOU SOT?

by the way. you're just full of bull-shit. Anyway, i feel better now because i finally get it off my chest. Just go away. stay in the rock like patrick and go play with spongebob.

2010-10-06T21:07:00.002+08:00

after 19 years of observation,

i realise that time does not exist in my life.
i realise that i had been wondering around for this whole year.
conclusion: i'm lost.

lost my pillar of strength
lost a listening ear
lost my sense of determination
lost my mind.

depression? just like the great depression in the 1920s?
indeed, environment plays an important role.

2010-07-10T18:30:00.000+08:00

eh!
i like picturessssss. xD

2010-07-09T20:31:00.002+08:00

well, i think nobody understands me more than .. myself, i guess.
sometimes i just want some time alone,
sometimes i just want someone to talk to..
finally understood how it feels to stay abroad without the presences of our loved ones.

realised you just dont understand me,
not because you are not observant enough.
it's just tt i like keeping things to myself.
blame me instead.

chem paper 1 just ended. marks the end of promo 1. I think this is the best i could do in this current situation. you know, it is not easy to keep in track especially if one needs to travel, work, study and score all at the same time. YES! i am complaining, but more towards reflecting. At times i wondered if i could handle so much things at one go.. am i greedy? because i could choose actually, to do one thing at a time..

i think.. i am already confused. or am i not even clear at the start of this game. i dont know, i dont need answers. i just want to solve everything and get back to the life i want. i just want happiness. simple. sweet.

maybe kl's right.
pride
resistance to change
spoilt.

i'm not spoilt. maybe it's called habit.

had aston today with kl, ordered 3 main course and 6 sides. LOL! it was filling. oh! we saw gerald. hee, so qiao. hmmm, made yi-da-li mian this morning for my ah ma. pack a little for kl and lisa to try. hee :)

am i dumb??

2010-07-04T23:33:00.001+08:00

it's proven.
shut up.

2010-07-02T22:35:00.002+08:00

well,
KAH LEONG is such a lazy bum.
everything is common sense to him!
i feel like an idiot in his presence, like i dont have common sense.
psss, but i have logic. =)=)=)

muhaha! xD

2010-07-02T22:25:00.002+08:00

buzz!

busy week! really a very.super.kuku.wonderful.stressful.busy.week i must say. rarr! REALLY LOH! can you tahan?

just had math paper in the morning and mob paper in the afternoon.
sayeeee gooddd-bye to math. =( i cant even do the questions given. OMG! i'm so sorry, my math teachers. i'm such a disgrace ah. but! nvm!~, there's always promo 2.

I MUST DO WELL! MOTIVATED MANNN.

please please let me pass chem.
It is like:
for the first time...
i've been looking in your eyes
for the first time... iiiii see who you are,
cant believe how much i see, when you're looking back at meeeee~

left with 3 more papers! jia you dawn! wooot!
bring it on! yeah! xD

(shyt* time to study for chem and phy.)

2010-06-18T15:03:00.000+08:00

i'm exhausted.

2010-06-08T19:23:00.002+08:00

I FEEL LIKE RUNNING
I FEEL LIKE SWIMMING
i want to be drenched in sweat.

because i feel fat. OMGG!
fats is back, how?
poor diet + no exercise + exam nearing + weak mind power = out of shape.
haa!

2010-05-22T17:30:00.002+08:00

i realise i lost control, i lost the idea of self-control, respect, and analysing.
relying does not work.
independence is the key.
but unwillingness is the obstacle,
because understanding has not been reached.

seriously, i find this period of time stressful and out of control.
anger, fear, guilty.
i'm just trying to ignore, screen. but i'm not blind.
i'm just trying my best to pretend to be myopic.

emotion controls the mind.
and mind have control over the body.
so what does body take control of? your actions? where it play a role of responsibility.

has she gone insane? or is her metality always this low? she is an obstacle, grown on your skin. removing hurts but leaving it there is a sore eye, hindering your movement. what should you do?? while he is a silent player who communicate with your emotions. he knows what is going on without being present. simply by just observing. another he is like a test. to test my time management, emotional endureness, responsibility and trustworthyness.

not explaining = irresponsible, unfair
but not explaining can also be = not hurting you, not making things worse because sometimes you are the problem. getting things clear does not always improve things. i might worsen. it's hurtful. and shame is an issue.

i'm truly tired.
but i will endure.
give me time to understand and accept.

2010-04-11T13:59:00.002+08:00

OH NO!!!
PI is killing me softly. =( so horribly done. omg! And i was suppose to hand in last friday and look!! it's still with me. ahhh!

anywayyyyy!! i;ve got tonns of things to do:
1) math assignment 12.1B, 12.1C, 12.1D and 12.2A. CRA-AAA-ZY
2) chem tutorial
3) MOB tutorial
4) GP online PEEL structure thingy**** must do!

help. if only there is a help button. haa x)
eh! piggy, please eat and rest well. =))

2010-04-04T20:21:00.003+08:00

Well!
went to study with kl at smu ytd. but before tt, he accompanied me back to my ah ma's place to get my revision stuff. We had Mr.bean pancakes for lunch cum dinner. haha! poor him, have to compromise me. He's always this noble. haha. xD! hmmm, i think it's time for me to suprise him. =x Anyway!! he looked tired all day. haha. oh! and i've completed my chem assignment. =) yay.

OMG! monday monday monday!
can you read my face?

oh and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, PNG WEE YANG! (falls on april fool, what a joke =x) nah, he doesnt mind. haha. nice friend, always keeping me entertained. Cip day was fun too! playing with those little monsters. cutee!

2010-03-17T10:32:00.003+08:00

it looks like i've did something wrong again. yes, again. this time round, who can i talk to? it seemed ridiculous, i mean the reason why i felt sorry. i'm sorry i have to disappoiont you and this might not be the only time u will get disappointed.. the are more to come. this is the best i could do at that moment. i dont want to lie inexchange for your smile. it's fake. i dont want it. solve the problem from the roots, not from the surface.

2010-03-13T14:44:00.003+08:00

WOAH!!!!

so many things happened last week. school, family, play. well, catch a couple of movies. percy jackson and the lightning theif, dear john and alice in wonderland. movie is nice, so are the ppl i watched with.

tuesday, it rained. i remember watching the guys playing in the rain. rugby? soccer? couldnt rmd. haha! waited for kl to end. he's always waiting for me.. now it's my turn =))

had frisbee training on wed. was shocked went i heard tt. ... nvm. frisbee was fun. haha! because i get to play with kl only. hahaaa! left early with kl to do my braces. had our dinner near danny's place after my dental appointment. we crap alot. haha!! =D went to khatib mac aft tt to finish my chem tutorial. home sweet home.

bought my slippers on thursday at ps with kl. $9.90 only. hahaa. kl chose the color and pattern for me. nice. lt's white and pink. =)) love it! BUTT! bought the wrong size. went to change to size 7 with lisa the next day. aft buying the slippers, we went to watch dear john tgt , movie was okay la. alot of kissing and crying la. haa.

went to sentosa ytd. some kuku MI teambuilding activity. It was fun, i wouldnt say extremely fun la. but okay la. i enjoyed it. i fell down 30secs after we were asked to run. hahaha! so clumsy. anyway!! the hightlight of the activity is the skyride and the luge! wooooot. had a little sun burn on my face. audrey has sun burn on her arm, haa! can see her two tonned arm clearly. OHH! she offered me 3 movie tickets for alice in wonderland at 7 tt day. so cool right! she got 10 tickets, so i asked lisa and kl along. Lisa, kana and i took our shower aft the whole thing end. poor kl had some pu3 sem going on in sch which end at 5.30. =(( went to send kanages off to the mrt station den lisa and i went to change my slippers. had our lunch there too. went to lisa's place after eating. had a lot of laughter while walking to lisa's place. spend a little time at her place den we set off to orchard by bus. she went to meet joyce, i went to meet kl. we were a little late for our movie. haha! weeyang, cherrie, zixin, lisa, audrey, edward, gerald, aaron, kl and me went to watch. like 10 ppl. woot. so fun. hhaa. wanted to eat after the movie but almost all shop closes alr, so kl and i went back without eating while the rest went to walk ard vivo.

i'll let you know once i overcome it. =)
please be really patient.

2010-03-05T21:56:00.002+08:00

=)

thank you sooooooo much.
i felt it.

2010-02-28T18:46:00.000+08:00

well. . .

LETS GET HIGHHH =)

2010-02-20T10:36:00.002+08:00

i dont know how to start.
i'm so sorry. for not being observant enough.
if not for this, things would be easier to handle.

i've been thinking about this issue for the past few days and hope that you will not ask that so soon. But as expected, you asked. To be honest, i really don't know what to do. should i run away, like i always did when i come across this, or should i face it? somehow, both parties will inevitabitly be hurt if i escape. yes, both parties.
so i choose to face it, the first time. It was tough, i try not to think or predict the next move. things went on smoothly, but not for long. a question with no answer is not we want. I had an answer, after much thoughts and talks. but how do i break it to you, without your ct as the opportunity cost? so it seems like waiting is the next best option. i waited but it doesnt mean others can. am i being selfish?
please do not worry much because...

2010-01-09T03:30:00.003+08:00

and then a hero comes along,
with the strength to carry on.
and your cast your fear aside,
and you know you can survive.
so when you feel like hope is gone,
look inside you and be strong.
and you finially see the truth
that a hero lies in you.~

well, school is reopening in like 2 more days!! unprepared! so unprepared. O level results releasing on monday. so all the best to those who will be receiving their results. =) i don't say good luck cos you don't need luck. :)

1) math undone
2) chem re-do
3) mob better revise
4) phy better revise too
5) Gp. LOL.what have i been doing?!
6) Mt. i should really borrow a book from the library. should i?

quick quick quack quack.
haha! i cant stop laughing. fadz ar fadz.

2010-01-07T00:09:00.002+08:00

HAHAHHA! highlight of the day : lisa told me she has a little bruise on her butt., from riding on a bicycle for hours. yes! hours.

went to studying with jocelyn in the moring. haha! i was super late. abt 2 hours late.hahaa! did math. at least i learnt something today. =)) met lisa at 5 at marymount station, went to vivo tgt for class gathering. well, it was a little bored cos . . . our class wasnt tt united. I mean we will always be doing our own stuff or watching others do.. like we dint really do something tgt. you two talk, i watch. know what i mean?a little sad. but at least we had a little fun having dinner tgt at pasta mania. =) pictures are with Q. waiting for her to upload.

THANK YOU HUI MIN FOR THE IDK WHAT COOKIE/GINGERBREAD. haha!

2010-01-05T16:18:00.003+08:00

it was jasmine's birthday 2 days ago, on the 3rd. happy birthday. =) had a little chat with her and she's still the same. haha.

school's starting soon. class gathering tmr evening. idk what we'll be really doing tmr other then filling up our stomach. but before class gathering, i'll be meeting jocelyn in the morning to brush up my maths. well, and there'll be a mock chem exam on the first week of school. so unprepared.

moo just asked me if i want to continue frisbee. i dint really give him an answer.. moo is tired. tab doesnt want to go for competition, amanda has bball, randy has tennis. danny and kl will be doing their A levels next year. that's just assumptions..

2009-12-29T22:22:00.003+08:00

what's your 2010 resolution?

year 2009 is ending, anticipating year 2010.

a short reflection of what life has been for me. .
2009, experienced lots of ups and downs. equally tough compared to 2008. 2008, the year where i first understood the feeling of endurance, had learnt to be strong. and each experience allowed me to be stronger than i was before.
08 ended, welcoming 09. i wasn't myself yet. readjusting was done over a few months. credits to t4 and frisbee. expecially frisbee, where i've learnt to divert my attention. Tab's experience has showed me how well i handled my things. finially understood and got over it. ty.
mid 09, my first and second suspension case. i need to buy time to catch up in class.
09year end, things went upside down again. i'm tired but i cannot let my pillar of stength fall. being selfish is not registered in my brain.

there are a lot of things that i dint disclose.worrying is not my full time occupation.

first it's the queen
then the only prince, who . . daydreams.
after tt, silver spoon was stolen
but it was recovered.
not long, the heart of the castle was attacked.
and poof! it's gone.
thought it was over, but now, it's the princess.
who's next?

2009-12-26T21:08:00.006+08:00

great! =( i will not be in 09s5. sad man! 09s3 instead. BOO HOO! so many new clasmates. so scary, so competitive and so unfamilar la. sian 1/2. =( well, what else can i do? all the best la, dawn. haha :D

kill those hunger pangs!

roti prata?

teo chew porridge?

ho kee pao?
pig organ soup? LOL!

zi char?

i'm so disorganised. have to really start waking up early, sleep earlier, get myself metally and physically prepared for school. *shit! running is a killer's job but its hobson's choice, i have to do it.*

CHEM

MATH

PHY

MOB

2009-12-26T02:07:00.002+08:00

haha! the guys went over to vike's place instead of east coast park tt day after movie. nice try vike and friend. =)

well, i don't like christmas. =x
though it was my parents wedding anniversary. cool arh. LOL!
christmas to me is just another day of extra taxi fare, road closure at orchard road and more human trafic in malls. traffic polices will stay up late, catching those drink drivers. more lights and noice accompanied with laughers next door. -.-

had jack's place for dinner at century square today with my parents only. sister went for christmas bbq. filling meal. =) saw marvin with his parents there too. dad bought mum a new watch. i saw her smile.

i'm tired. good night. merry christmas.

2009-12-23T19:50:00.002+08:00

hahahahahaha!

vike, randy, deon, weiling, sj, fadz and i went to watch avatar ytd. It was a long movie. i wouldn't say it was superb, but worth the money la. Nice la. But sadly, we dint catch the movie in 3D. could enjoy the better effect hor?

we literally waste our time at vivo while waiting for the movie to start showing. went to daiso to buy pokka cards. hahahaha! like so kuku lidat. xD. weiling was like the photographer of the day, took quite a number of pictures. oh and fadz was the laughing machine. deon is alway the blur one, randy the lame one, vike the high one and sj the cartoon one. haha. :D

welll, the guys actually scream, shout and run around vivo after the movie, doing the jay chou craze. haha. it was so memorable cos vike accidently bang into some weak-looking fine lady while doing one of thier shit thing.. *ps. dear fine lady, we apologise for banging onto you. sorry* haha.

AND! you know what? Jay chou and the lin zhi ling (correct?) were in the same building as us, in vivo. we dint get to see them!!!! such a pity. we were happily watching our avatar in the movie theater and they were just in front of te ticket counter advertising their movie -.-. SO NEAR YET SO FAR. lol. before we went in to watch our movie, we saw the setting up of stage. and after we finish the movie, saw the removal of the stage and red carpet. cool arh? timing v zhun arh? haha! abit sua ku to chase after them la. haha! just find it fun to see their faces live.

2009-12-21T16:09:00.002+08:00

yay!
vike and gang postponed the watching of avatar to tmr. that means i can still watch tt movie with them. :) :) yayness

anddd. . . i woke up early today and did what i'm suppose to do. went back to northbrooks band camp and the first person i saw was ziqi. she was super skinny like haven been eating well. did raymond torture you? haha! jk. but super thin la. try to eat more. haha. glenn and kingking still the same. tay susu looked slimer. and peiyi looked tall. 163cm same as king king. hmm, kamiyah put on a little weight. haha. more nutrition arh. =x aiyo.

okay. i'll continue ltr. =)

2009-12-20T20:08:00.003+08:00

well. just did an essay on tourism but i don't know if the standards are met yet. zzz. year 2009 is ending soon!!

alright! it's been a busy week for me. the wedding thingy just ended ytd. was so tiring. woke up at 12.30pm the next day. dint really clear the mess last night so had to continue clearing right after i woke up.

was so suay u know?! vike and gang planned to watch avatar tmr and i happen to be . . aiya. cant make it. time is always so zhun. -.- SIANNNNED wanted to watch so badly u know!! u know u know??? bet u don't know.

2009-12-17T22:07:00.002+08:00

well.
fats fats fats. i cant help but to continue welcoming them. haa! holiday la, nothing else to do. cannot blame me for eating too much right? =x. i realise that whenever i;m bored, i'll tent to think about eating. so, the solution of getting fats away is to keep myself busy with . . anything except food. =) ta-da.

awww, tab just reminded me something. i haven been staring at the idiot box for agessssss! =(
somethings are meant to be . . u know, i know.. haha

2009-12-07T20:18:00.001+08:00

aiyo, don't lidat leh.
i dun wan la. please please.
ty v much.

2009-12-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

blood boiling now. eeeee.
irritating!

2009-12-05T20:56:00.002+08:00

"Frosty the snowman. ."

accidentally cut myself today, while dealing with the bloody small red chili. COOLLL! my nail came off as well. haha! U-shape somemore. haa! xD.

UNIQLO has this offer, $9.90 only lehhhh! crazy opening sale. -.-

2009-12-04T22:43:00.002+08:00

aww. memories!
really miss those time with jasmine, cindy, glenn.
haha!

standard chartered run coming up soon.
and yan would be running. woot!

oh! i watched "Murderer" and it was somewhat like the chinese version of orphan. a little different but equally disturbing. haha! it was a M18 movie. nice. =) and and and!! i just found out that banana plays a guitar. haha. it was suprising for me cos he dont look like he would be interested in those stuff la. cool!! xD

OMG!! i seriously need to continue revising! time to draw up a revision plan uh?

2009-12-01T18:43:00.002+08:00

hello every ba dee. =)

Ranging Phoenix is such a nice movie. watched it with josh 2 weeks ago? couldnt rmb. hee. should watch! so much fighting and also quite funny. worth the money money moneyyy yea. unfold so many secrets from joshyyy man! wahaha. evil.

Its the first day of December. well..
when can singapore ever snow? so hot man! everyday like kena bbq.

watched "accident" ytd night. it was nice, a little. . idk how to describe. sad ending la. =( oh! watched the Korean movie, 'my girlfriend is an agent", too. super hilarious. xD. i like. haa. hmmm, maybe i should watch more comedy films.

i feel bored now. finished reading "keeping faith" finially. dont want to do mundane jobs. no more nice movies. class outing is still in-progress.

revising during the holiday period is soooo. .
well, seems like tt's the only choice left huh?

2009-11-30T03:13:00.000+08:00

i dont like.
maybe its like this.
couldnt ask why. and wouldnt want to know.
but. .

blah blah blah blah blah times 10 to the power of 100 000 000 000.

it hurts. i need a listening ear. abit kuku la.

2009-11-26T20:32:00.003+08:00

Aiyo. . wasnt feeling v well this morning so dint attend chem lesson, although today was the last chem lesson.. (on energetics lehhh) -.-
went to shop for my stuff at bugis in the afternoon.then went to my dad's place. =)

should i? idk.

2009-11-24T21:00:00.003+08:00

yay!

today's chem lesson was superrrr boring. CPC wasnt free so we combine with weiling's class, under T. Got nothing to do after lesson so decided to go home. saw lisa outside school's bus stop, accompanied her for lunch then mrt-ed home. OH! had a slight headache today. . been quite some time since i last got it.. went to yck farm today to check out puppies. haa! wasnt really captivated by their puppies.plus i was a little smelly. hee =x went to yishun 900plus too. den went back to dad' place. =) such a loong day.
p.s. i'm still in uniform.

22/11/09 (sunday) it dint rain!
shijie's bbq was fun! chicken wings, hotdogs, otahs, satays, fish etc. . OMG! sso filling. plus, we played poker, frisbee and soccer. haha. about 17 of us only. hee. xD! took photos and video. . featuring SHIJIE! haha. so cartoonnnnn. hopefully weiling and gang would be able to upload them in fb soon. looking forward. had a fun time there, enjoyed. =)))) ty

23/11/09
well, i forgot what i did. . WAHAHA

2009-11-24T20:45:00.000+08:00

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me
Let's talk about love

I wanna know what love is, the love that you feel inside
I want you to show me, and I'm feeling so much love
I wanna feel what love is, no, you just cannot hide
I know you can show me, yeah

2009-11-17T00:17:00.002+08:00

i was told that i was wrong.
but i refuse to accept, believe or think that i was/

i don't understand. explain to me.
but the explanation given to me . . .
. . . i still don't understand.
explain

i have a reason for doing it. -.-

2009-11-15T21:32:00.002+08:00

well!
such a nice day today. yay! woke up late today and had chicken porridge, chee chong fan and roti prata for breakfast. woahhh so filling! haha. shared with my dad la. u think i can finish meh?

hazel's preparing for her prom..
she bought her dress only ytd. cool arh. 17 is her prom.

oh ya! had to go back to school on the 17th, 19th, 24th and 26th. for EXTRA CHEM LESSONS! woooooooot.

G, nice talking to you. haha. dont think too much.

2009-11-15T01:39:00.003+08:00

it's always like that.
tough but still worth it. so why complain?

Boomz and shingz. haha! such a loser.
but i like. hee.

having my holiday now, got so much things to do like revising my school work, catching up, getting myself prepared for year 2. no working part-time outside this year.

well, a little of my thoughts:
t4 has always been with me since the beginning of the year, i really appreciate your accompany. omg, i realise i have too much things to say and i dun want to pen them down cos it sounds so mushy. haha! anyway, i love t4. (p.s: love is a strong word).

T,Y and S were good listeners whom i can turn to whenever i have to let it out. although i dont do any screaming, shouting, crying or behaving like a insane, i feel much better after talking to you people.
J and SH are my source of laughter. haha! camel toe.
Dkys always make me think differently. i dont know why. but. . ya. you always do.
R, my "brother" for the half the year. so nice of you to let me rely on.
DT best la! small eyes. thanks for your lame entertainment.. *i still rmb i copied math assignment from you* haha.
JK, without you, i think the whole of t4 will miss alot of your jokes and your partner J.
CT, the runner, we might have the same body mass but other than that, i dun think we share anything else in common.. weirdo. haah! but your presence made a difference. =) appreciated.

alhw and kl was also a good accompany and my source of motivation during my 1mth suspension. really, if not for them, i dont know if i can be given the opportunity to be advanced year 2. so, i really must thank both of them.

SJ, L, Feekee were also my part of my motivation of coming to school everyday. at least i have something to look forward to. =) great accompany, at least i feel my presence too. listening to the conversation alone can already make me LOL.

shaidah is the best of best la. i really miss your irritating voice. =x you gave me a v warm feeling. no stress kinda feeling. i like.

but things alway dont happen the way u wanted it to.. .

you, who only recognizes money as your sole friend, is NOT welcome.
go to your world of money where it can satisfy your hunger of greed..
UGLY.

2009-10-25T19:25:00.000+08:00

well.! long time since we last talked!. haa.

2009-10-18T20:20:00.005+08:00

lalala~

t4 outing was fun. especially during the screaming part done by josh. haa xD! well done! haa. but.. hmmm majority of us were late(but i was early! yay) so. . . tab and daniel was a little pissed off. and also we couldnt come to a decision on where to eat, what to do etc.. but overall. it was fun la. AND!! deon tt small eyed fellow.. evil!.. haa. he was making fun of ehem and we just cant stop laughing.. poor little ehem.

2009-10-14T20:24:00.001+08:00

well..~ t4 gathering tmr. :)
hurry hurry.

i'm afraid of not being able to . . i duno la. #$%^&*@#$%%^&*^
how? what to do??
oh! btw, i miss playing frisbee..

2009-10-09T18:34:00.000+08:00

SHAMELESS!!!!

2009-10-09T18:30:00.002+08:00

i don't understand you.
be like MJ. live in his own world.

2009-09-27T19:07:00.004+08:00

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
great!

amanda lee is finally well!! yayness. she was down with fever at temperature is 38 and rising man! since thursday la. aiyo! gong gong still came to school. but!! nvm, she'll be back tmr. alright.

hmm, i'm done with my gp compre passage. FINIALLY LAHHH. took me two days to complete it. felt good, though it was looong. =x (suddenly thought of jihwee's lame comment on this phrase "long long ago". random. maybe only yang and jh understand what i'm talking abt la. )

oh! i'll die of laughter with kl around. so beware. ssssss. plus hand sign.

i;m behind timeeeeee!
- 4 more days to chem practical and i know nothing about those experiments. how? how? how??
- 3 more days to GP paper

huat arh. =) =) =)

blue is such a nice color but i prefer orange.

2009-09-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

HANG ON!

xD.
please stop relying on panadol dawn! you can do it. three cheers and three cheers. . -.-"

i'm so bored now. . . drooling away. . LOL.
sept holiday. not really flooded with assignments. studying with the usual. yishun library this time.. but will be at woodlands library on thurs. woot =)

so nice of C to call me. haa. thought she has forgotten abt me man. haa! been a year alr. when can we meet up? =) =) =)

things to do (has done half-way):
1) haa! MOB chapter 6. finishing
2) math, oh my! where do i start?
3) physic (work, energy, power) FUN!
4) chem ..getting boring

2009-08-27T14:01:00.002+08:00

Back to school!
so much things happened. hate politics! weirdos

things to do:
1) chinese compo
2) mob globalistion of business, management and organisaition. ha leh lu ya!
3) math inequalities
4) chem design experiment. shiet!

new shoes, new bra. LOL!

i'm officially broke now. and thinks that maybe I should stop spending. START SAVING, DAWN!! :]]

well, it's raining now and i'm stuck. =)

2009-08-14T01:19:00.003+08:00

237, such a nice number.

well, so many things happened!
F was pregnant and had just given birth to a baby boy. At first i couldnt believe it, even until B told me. shared my views with M and we actually think the same way. BUT!! i was even more surprised, or shocked to see that their friends are actually. . not helping them in a way they should be.. kinda disappointing. y so eager to be their god-mothers, god-dad, god-uncles, god-aunties?? indirectly encouraging them or telling them that what the both of them did is "perfectly right and that we're are proud of them"?? apa ini?

maybe tonnes of similar questions had already gone through their minds. maybe they had already think of all the consequences before hand. ARGH! but i have a so much things to ask. . though it really has nothing to do with me.. but out of c.. I'm really worried. seriously. and i dont think any of them are ready. responsibility sometimes doesnt apply this way.

OMG!!!!
hope for the best.

RIGHT!
one more freaking week and i'm back to school!!! i'm sooooooo excited and eager to return, just like how superman returns. really gonna chiong like some gay-shyt. watch. just watch. tickets pricing will increase as time goes. wheeeee

ANDDDD, wu's birthday comming up. what are we getting him??

things to do:
1) math matrixes, inequalities
2) chem energetics
3) phy non-linear motion
4) MOB
5) GP summary
6) chinese tb. LOL

plans for tmr:
- sadly no frisbee (sorry A,KL,D,R,M,J)
- dental appointment
- math, chem, phy

p.s i know how to do it already. yay!

nights! =)=)=)

2009-08-04T02:13:00.002+08:00

oh well!!
woodlands library has been such a nice place to study at. BUT! like what randy had said, i should use some common sense. haaa! advise heeded, sir! haa.

1) chemistry energetics
2) math inequalities, equations
3) physic non-linear motion(??)
4) MOB, globalisation of business. SHITTTTTTT!

fats is my best friend now. i'm so sorry ah fat! you had to leave me now. shoo shoo.. exersice! frisbee! woot.
math tmr!2pm.
GO GO GO GO!

2009-07-30T18:11:00.003+08:00

rotting. actually not really. did some studying on my own but couldnt understand most of it. it's been a week. waste of time really. i need a direct ticket to albert einstein's brain.

2009-07-25T18:01:00.002+08:00

oh well. a whole month. ONE WHOLE MONTH. abit ridiculous la but. . aiya, spoke to the wrong person la. but seriuosly, there is something wrong in the system. shldnt the p do something about it? the problem is there, obviously there. and i believe this miss law-by-law's mind or concept is corrupted. she's a total true typical singaporean. trust me. i'll show you.

test no. 1: is she kiasu?
definition of kiasu: take too much unnecessary precautions.
is she? YES!! totally kiasu.

test no.2 : is she kiasi?
definition of kiasi: afraid to face consequences. super timid.
is she? YES!! 100%

plus, she's super law-by-law la, simply just the heartless, cold creature. maybe she forgot to bring her conscience out. left it at home.

anyway!
i've pass MOB paper! cos 49/100 is a pass. LOL! finially a pass in a H2 subject. congrats to myself. =)

2009-07-19T12:46:00.021+08:00

well, just got back some of my results last week. and only manage to pass my mother tongue. =x a S pass in H1 phy isnt a pass right? anyway, failed with "flying colors" for h2 chem and h2 math. haa! haven get back GP and MOB. hopefully wont fail tt badly la.

haa. so much things to settle!! studies, school, frisbee, dad's place etc..
now i've got a list of things to do:
1) study chem gaseous state
2) Do chem promo 1 corrections
3) IRP research
4) GP research
5) MOB tutorial 9a and b

oh, last tuesday was randy's birthday. happy belated birthday, randy!! last wed was tabitha's birthday. HAPPY BELATED BIRHDAY, TAB! both 17 yrs old.
only 4 of us went to nyp for training. amanda, danny, kl and me. last training was really tough and exhausting. drain so much water and energy. tt is probably one of the rare occasions where i really tahan those physical training. running running and more running. =((((( tuesday is coming again.. NOOOO.

and! the frisbee people, danny, kl, moo, amanda and me, celebrated randy's birthday on friday, 17 july. went to seoul garden after school for lunch. bought randy a bottle and we made randy a card with 2 unglam photos. haa! only managed to keep randy until 4 cos he has some appointment with his friends at4. moo left soon after randy. did window shopping with amanda while danny and kl went for their hair cut. wanted to enter ion orchard but it wasnt open to public yet. walked ard for awhile den home.

2009-07-09T19:23:00.010+08:00

helloo! new skin. . like mj huh, change skin too. hee.

anyway, tml is our frisbee outing at sentosa and only 5 of can make it. sad case man. &*(&^%$# nvm. anyway, it will turn out fine tmr. i assure. :))

pictures took long time ago. enjoy.

2009-07-08T14:22:00.006+08:00

well, i think i'll most prolly fail my promo 1 exams. :(
last min revision only works at certain time.
being the last in class isnt tt bad right? haa at least not the last in school.
wish me luck!!!

2009-06-12T18:52:00.002+08:00

haa. i'm high now. =)
keep the high-ness on till the hols end!
woot~

2009-05-31T23:37:00.002+08:00

Putting the blame on others. Is this the right way or thing to do? is you eyes positioned at your nose? YOU ARE IN THE WRONG, DUDE. stop blaming others. actually, there is no wrong or right. things sometimes just don't always be the way you want it to be. just do something about it and not wait or make a fuss. you're not some singaporean auntie whose hobby is to compare and complain.

RESPECT, RESPECT AND RESPECT. where is the respect?
never assume. seriously, do you think he/she will understand what you want if you don't say?
no wonder you have to escape. you simply cant take up the challenges. gave up easily, finding excuses to cover up. do you want to be an orang utan? admiting mistakes is a very healthy and normal thing to do.

DUMB ass
donkey

sometimes, sacrifices are necessary. dont expect anything in return. =)

did some revision today. went for frisbee competition ytd. was a v good experience. talk abit it tmr la. nights. muacks!

2009-05-29T19:52:00.003+08:00

Finially! completed my physic assignment4.1 which is like overdue for ages la. haa! talk about my General Paper? well. i chose this question about modern technology, if it brings benefits to the lives of people and to what extend. dint manage to complete writing the essay. its has always been like that. in fact this essay is the longest essay i have written so far in MI. haa. my essay without conclusion and contrasting points.

had frisbee training after gp paper. was so boring.. not as fun as it use to be. competition is tomorrow. hopefully we can win something. NO! not hopefully, we will win something! =))

im sorry.

2009-05-25T16:01:00.003+08:00

well.. GP exam in two days time and it is obviously that i am not prepared. it has been a long time since i last burnt any midnight oil to study or revise my work. haven been managing my time well too. just realise that i cant balance school work, family and frisbee well. planing time-table does help. cos i've tried.

anyway. i;ve got suspended for a week because of my late coming. this may seem bad but it is actually a good chance for me to settle down and study for my upcoming GP exam. it is 40% of pre u 1 exam, so.. i guess this is a "suitable" period to serve my suspension la.

Frisbee competition is around the corner. 30th may., like 5 days later la! training dint get any intense. internal conflicts are rising, politics! i hate politics! so. . i'll just train and study hard la. =) hopefully. so moody nowadays.

things to do:
1) write 5 FULL essays
2) Train throwing backhand and forehand properly (frisbee) *no chicken wing*
3) brush up maths. (chapter 5)
4) study chem on chemical bonding
5) study MOB chapter 4 and 5
5) do physic assignment which are OVERDUED

hola~! so much to do. .

2009-05-04T19:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY SHENG YANG!!!! meh~ (1st may)

30th April 09

went for dental appointment, missed school. so much to catch up. =(

cucumber, tomato, lemon, onion, garlic. LOL =)

1st may 09

WOOOT! Frisbee Teengames held today. Woke up early, suppose to reach bishan at 835 but some things went wrong. hmm.. let me analyse.

1st: i'm meeting randy and tabitha at yishun mrt and khatib mrt respectivly but both woke up late.

2nd: randy ez-link has insufficient value to travel on the mrt and has no cash with him at tt time. so i had to travel back to save him. haa =)

3rd: the train only come every 6 minutes.

4th: it was already 820 when we board the train at yishun.

Now u know why we are late. =)

WELL!! marcus came! the "wu" marcus. taking pictures as usual. moo was unable to play with us during the teengames cos of his leg injuries. kinda sad la. so, only kah leong, danny, me, randy, tabitha, vicki and mini moo played. We won all the matches tt day! so high. but its because danny and kah leong were in the team and because the competitors are kinda"new" and "weak". *not because we are strong. =x anyway, we are really happy tt day. oh, shawn came to support us. haha. but left half way. my boots wasnt co-operative. haha. the soles came out in the middle of the game. haa. hmmm. went to had lunch with them after the game. tabitha, moo, mini moo and vicki dint join us. after the game, i went down to my dad's place. was so tired tt i slp throughout the whole bus ride.

OH! lois was our sportfriend, team co-ordinator la. haa. *i though she was a guy* so sorry. =x she's nice! and smart.

2nd May 09.

2nd part of teengames. competiting for the 1st 3 medals la. As excepted, we dint manage to get any of the medals. but everyone in the team knows that we tried our best. seriously, i tried my best. this is best i can do.. ANYWAY! we won 2 matches out of 5. so. .i wasnt too bad. Marcus brought lemon tea for us and lois bought some snacks for us! so sweet of them. supportive eh.. took lots of photos. i think we were 7th or 8th. oh, danny's gf came to see him. haha! so sweet. ANYWAY~ had lunch after the game. kahleong, marcus, randy, vicki and plus a lady( i duno who) =x at yoshinoya. talked alot abt the game and other future trainings and blahblah blah~ reached home at ard 6. bath, slp. =) ta-da~!

ps: i'm just tired.

3rd may 09.

dad's place. i look so "black"

4th may 09

woke up late, skipped school. ms jee called. =) wish me luck.

2009-04-26T17:40:00.002+08:00

Flood me with tonnes of assignments and i'll shit on you.

skipped school on thursday. went to woodlands library to study with randy and cindy. edward came after that. received msg from vivian saying that there will be no detention on thursday cos the fallen tree on PIE cause traffic jam, so late comers will not have to serve detention. -.-

polyclinic-ed for 2 whole hours, $5.50. after that, wanted to watch friday the 13th but the rest were still underage (birthday not yet over). 17 again sounded gay, so dint watch. in the end, no movies. had sakae sushi for dinner. cost a bomb. $65++ played some prank there and got caught. haha xD. manager looked like he's caling the police. little moments to remember. LOL.

met up with yan and josh at northpoint KFC. saw kamiyah.had a little chat. back home.

Friday!
moo was absent. tennis ppl had a match at SAJC. so i'm left with tabitha and joshua to play frisbee with. seniors came back. 2 of them. the ladies. =) played match for awhile. haha. marcus came and played for awhile. kah leong and danny had cheerleading but came and play during their breaks. not as tired la. =)

Saturday!
dad's restaurant, dad's restaurant and dad's restaurant. no where else.
*i've got a new shoe*

2009-04-19T00:54:00.002+08:00

hello peeps!
we had a chem test on friday, on some O level topic. hopefully i wont get a zero. =x finished MOB topic 3 alr.. had to do those tutoria questions.. so unwilling to do. its like wrtiting an essay, no it should be 4 essays. cos there are 4 questions to be done. =(

friday is the shortest "studying" day. minus the cca luh.. =) haha! oh, i stayed back for chem consultation and found out it was not really useful. she teach so slow. . and not clear. i dont know how to say this la.. =x haa.

had frisbee training. training under the HOT SUN!! so warm lah. had to run and run and run. . .it was fun though. haha! moo is so scaryyy~ hha. went to look at the tennis ppl during breaks. oh ya.. talking abt tennis, they had a tennis match last thursday. againts NJC. lost lah.. haha. there's this indian guy, quite good looking, playing against shawn. doubles. the indian guy practically stone there everytime his partner surf. oh ya.. it was a close match between the best player in MI (ben) and alex from NJC. his friends think that he needs a happy stick in order to win the match. wondering what is a happy stick? i'm not going to say. haha xD he's damn good at tennis. !! thumbs up!

woke up at 2 today. had my first meal right after i woke up. nasi lemak. haha! went to my dad's place. the sun was freaking nasty today.. hot hot hot! i was sweating even waiting at the traffic lights for the red man to turn green. sweat glands are so hardworking these days. wondering why.

night peeps! =))

2009-04-12T15:58:00.004+08:00

alright, dint blog for quite sometime already. firstly, happy belated birthday to adeva, 17 and averic 18. old people soon to be.

seriously, i cant understand a single thing "taught" by my chem teacher. not even one. oh, i forgot, she don't even teach. -.- it is only 2 chapters, mole concept and atomic structure. totally catch no ball. no textbooks, no notes HOW TO DO SELF STUDY?! Math is okay for now, got to really do alot of catch up thou. Physic is fine too.. just need more practice. MOB.. a new chapter now, heard it's easy. i'll see. GP and MT,. .help.

oh!! i have been late for school for about 4 times already. SHIT! 3 more times to get barred from exams.

Frisbee teengames comming up. can we play well?? uneasy.

Task to be done by 13 april 09 monday:
1) Copy chem assignment 3b into foolscape
2) Do corrections for chem class test (btw, i scored a big fat zero for chem the test)
3) Finish chem assignment 3a
4) Do math assignment 2.1 and 2.2
5) Do GP essay : disscuse the important of marriage in today's society.
6) Read up on MOB new chapter.
7) Practice physic :forces
8) research on Singapore youngest (chinese project)

i saw a reflection of myself a few days ago. At least i know i am stronger now.

2009-03-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUAAAAAAAAA

AR-rrrrrr~

haha. made my live in MI so fun and full of crap, nonsense and all those brain polluting elements. haha! please stay this way.. dont grow up. haha. happy birthday! =)

2009-03-26T00:16:00.002+08:00

well, today is a nice day.
THANKS ALOT steph, randy, deon, deepika, daniel, moo, yan, joshua, shawn, adeva, tabitha,cindy and ct. i really enjoyed myself today. never had i experience these kinda stuff before. it was always those formal ones. =) thank you all so much! i finially get to smile.

tmr JOSHUA'S BIRTHDAY!. MY TWINNY chan dawn. haha! happy 17th birthday!! Rrrr~ haha =)

not feeling right now. its not doin well and it hurts.i dont think it will get better as time goes.you doesnt seems to understand. touch your heart, have a feel of your conscience. happy birthday to u. they forgot, so do u. no cake. no candles, no laughter, no memories.

is money that influential? yea, greed.
tt is y people left her for them.
provided only when their own interest at stake, otherwise.

2009-03-24T20:20:00.002+08:00

missed school ytd. damn.oh ya., my phone is still infected with some kuku viruses, time to sleep in the coffin already =) going back to its ancient world. haha. which meanss no one can contact me for the time being. and that is so suay. =(

anyway. went to school today. though i woke up late =x OKAY! went with joshy. reached school at 8am. i was on the dot. . . . . Chemistry was the first lesson and as usual, boring as ever. Chem is totally laborious, making my brain cells die faster than they should. haha! i kept talking about brain cells cos that's the only thing i know about my brain. LOL.

wow.. i feel like lao sai-ing now. i'll have to bomb the toilet now. =) brb

i'm back but i cant seem to let the shit out of my body.. so.. ya.

after chem is physic, the tutor is always lame. some entertainment la. break after physic. finially i can eat!. had curry noodle. cravingss! it's nice. abit spicy luh. =) hmm.. GP after break. we discussed abt globalisation again. like how it affects the farmers, WTOs, Women Rights association, the Govt and etc. . i'm standing for women rights and i am for gobalisation. =)) but overall, i feel that only the farmers are against globalisation cos they are left behind, cant catch up and hence earn no $$. =x ALRIGHT, done with GP. MOB aft tt. was late. the tutor is abit sot today. or maybe, she's always like tt? 0.0 who knows. (her husband) haha! xD. anyway.. she went through alot today. i dont understand majority of it cos i was absent ytd. missed a whole lot of it. argh! class ended aft MOB. went to do my chem test which i missed ytd and went to complete my physic assigment due tmr at 8am.

bus-train-walk-home. =)

2009-03-22T00:03:00.002+08:00

people are so. .

anyway! celebrated piak2 17th birthday. he's so young. haha! HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY CT!. woke up at 8am today. suppose to meet randy at 8am thou. haha =x went to sengkang to watch frisbee match. It was okay. .a rather fruitful trip la. can tel tt randy was bored. haha! i wanted to watch and stay longer but. . ya. after watching for half an hour, we went to eat ljs. den went back, continue watching. but after awhile, we went to have ice kajang. HAHA! did actually saw what i always wanted to see: ppl diving for the disk. wooot! so . . qiang. hee.

went back to yishun to met the ppl for ct bday then . .bought a sausage with bun and lemon grass lime for $3.50 at np on the way. xD my first meal for the day. met daniel, yan, tabby, piak2, deon and jocelyn den headed to serence centre for island creamey~ bought a mudpie for ct, took tonns of pictures with shawn's outstanding expensive yet not so cool camera. shared some lame jokes. . went to mac . .blah blah blah. . den headed back to yishun for a game of pool. was already 5 plus when we reach safra luh. nice game!. haha! i left at 7 plus with yan. gotta meet my parents. =)

saw this super cute alarm clock which i want to buy for joshua.. but as u know, i'm broke. so .. . the only thing i can do is think and yearn for it. . i know its aupicious to get a clock for someone but tt clock is damn cute. it's like this : the alarm clock rings and the only way to stop it is to use a gun(provided), aim at the board(above the clock) at the middle and shoot. it works using infra-red light. like remote control la.. cool right? hah!

2009-03-22T00:00:00.001+08:00

ALL OUT OF LOVE

A E
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone,
A E
thinking of you 'til it hurts
A E
I know you hurt too, but what else can we do,
A A/G# E
tormented and torn apart.

A E
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart,
A E
For times when my life seems so low.
A E
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring,
A E B
When today doesn't really know, Doesn't really know.

(Chorus)
E B
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost with you,
A B
I know you were right, believing for so long.
E B
I'm all out of love, what am I without you,
A B E
I can't be to late to say that I was so wrong.

A E
I want you to come back and carry me home,
A E
Away from these long, lonely nights.
A E
I'm reaching for you. Are you feeling it too?
A A/G# E
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?

A E
And what would you say if I called on you now,
A E
And said that I can't hold on?
A E
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day,
A E B
Please love me or I'll be gone. I'll be gone.

(To Chorus:)

E B A
Oooo....What are you thinking of
E
What are you thinking of
B A
What are you Thinking of
E A E B
What are you Thinking of

2009-03-20T21:21:00.001+08:00

2009-03-20T20:51:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO

oh, there's no frisbee training during the hols.
woke up late today ard 11. Met jocelyn to study maths at 1.45 at yishun library but i was late. =x haha! sorry. apparently we dint touch anything on maths but physic, physic and physic. plus abit of chem lah. (for me la) =) manage to do 6 questions for physic for 4 hours. LOL. such a big accomplishment. -.- after tt, went to eat with the tennis ppl : randy, shawn and deon. the rest went back. home-ed

damn. my handphone now is currently unavailable. some aliens or shit just invaded my phone system. HUAT ARH. ;)

tmr ct birthday. island creamery! here we come.
FRSIBEE MATCH TMR AT SENGKANG. =) watching. watching. watching.

2009-03-17T17:55:00.002+08:00

holo holo~

well.. pool at safra on sunday. daniel, randy, moo, shawn, tab, deon and piak2 went. deon and shawn went off half way. dinner at 848. lame jokes told by josh was forward-ed to daniel and rest via randy. haha! -.- was the usual face luh. LOLs. oh! i love daniel's ipod. so many nice songsssssssssssssssssssssssssss~ his ipod rocks!! three cheers for his ipod. -.-" anyway, pool was okay. shawn is good!!

went to dad's place ytd. (monday) morning was busy.. but night was. . okay. shall not mention. oh, saw dine and company ytd night. they were building up their muscles. LOL!! saw some unfamillar faces too..

now~
eating and bloggin at the same time. fats. =)
think i'll have frisbee camp tml. =(
tanned
shit
FRISBEEEEEEEEEEE~

2009-03-15T01:13:00.002+08:00

RIGHT!

chemistry is killing my brain cells~ slowing and softly. online assismentss, group work, lab work. YUCKS! i want to protest. haha. talking about group work. okay.. this grp wk thingy is suppose to be done last monday and every science student has to do this &^&^*%$# shitty thing. dun wanna talk abt it. boiling~! shld delete this subject from my brain. argh

SHIT MAN! there's also a project work for MT. =( and.. i feel like dying soon. weeeee~ haah! bless me with holy water~ holo holo.

maths = huat arh

physic = huat arh

gp = huat arh

$$$$$$$$$$$

oh ya.. i dint buy tt kukulator. -.- damn

2009-03-09T00:19:00.002+08:00

THINKINGGGG in process.

lalalalalala~!

2009-03-07T20:29:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY FARAH LEONG!!

alright, i'm really lost now. lost. lost. lost ='(
absent myself from school again on thursday. overslept luh. -.-
AND my brain isnt functioning well enough.
where have my brain cells gone to. COME BACK!
Starting to understand maths already. but ya, cos of thursday, i missed a huge part of it.
Physic . . and Chem.. cmi already.
comes to GP. halehluya~
sch's system is driving me nuts.

tired. peers. sch.

ytd was MI sports fiesta.
their cheerleading really sucks. =x i mean all.
frisbee aft tt. moo shld rest. take care.

2009-03-03T15:31:00.002+08:00

well,

i dint attend school today and ytd. having a flu and running a fever. sucks like shit man. missed so much lessons. especially chemisty (4 periods) and MOB (whole week). i cant seem to catch up with my classmates. holly~ got to revise all sec 5 work again. =( AND!! i really cant understand physic, totally. It sounded so foreign. #$%^& yaba yaba? X) Maths is so much tougher and i had to pick up Additional maths by myself. lucky there's ms ong, randy and a few more to help me in that. thanks ah! =)

i shall annouce that i am now CCA-less. haha. tennis training is so tough. Frisbee is so much better. BUT, heard that their training can be as tough or tougher then tennis ones. HUAT ARH~!

work done:
1) chem ws1 (due ytd)
2) chem ws 2 (due ytd)
3) chem online task (due ytd)
4) Lecture notes on chem (due today?)
5) read the notes on MOB (management of business)
6) Physic ws (due ytd)
7) Math hw exe B (due ytd?)

2009-02-17T23:20:00.002+08:00

HUMANSS =)

being!

pictures took during orientation ^

first pic: (from left) steph, dawn, carina, natasha and qiuyi

second pic: (from left) randy, yan, carina, dawn, *i duno who*, stephanie

TROJAN 4!! =)

ALRIGHT! Enough. today

i;m bored yet busy?! grandma fell down today. went to visit her today. she looks fine. =) heng arh~.

went to safar ytd to play tennis. actually randy, steph, deon, yan, moo and josh are the ones playing. haah! josh did smth unforgetable. practically, he forgot to wear his shorts. xD tt's the highlight of tt day.

today they plus ysoon, shawn and many more.. (i guess.) went to play tennis at shawn's condo. heard fm moo tt it was okay. haha. chao teng aka piak piak and moo went swimming aft some time. i;ll upload some more photos next time. =)

2009-02-15T18:08:00.002+08:00

ahhh! i dint get into tennis. =( tt farmer..

frisbee!! =) go go go!

happy birthday to kang wen! 18 alr. tt fast.

at my dad's restaurant now. . . bored. oh! i went to read on Additional Math and i cant seem to understand it.. i need tt for H2 math. and i need to buy a graphic calculator for $150 also. =( lalala~

i;m planning a jamming session on 21st, after class gathering.. tt will be alr 6? i duno. haha! got to start practicing alr!! wooot. i'm hungry now.

2009-02-07T18:12:00.003+08:00

Hi people. LOL

i cant seem to put the photos took duing prom and kamiyah's birthday. Stupid blogger.. of izzit my internet connection. haha =x alright! let me post abt my education

i'm posted to millennian institite (MI) and just finish my first week of boring orientation.
day 1 : boring
day 2 : boring
day 3 : boring
day 4 : boring
day 5 : boring

but there's a few funny incidents la. the receipt thingy. you know, tt two girls. or shld i say lesbian and butch? haha! and this OM arh.. he damn funny. cos this two "girls" kept on laughing when one of the teachers is giving a talk in the hall. so the om asked them up after the presentation to share the story with the whole pre-u 1s. the les said tt someone is passing notes using the receipt then continued giggling. the butch then shared her part of her story.. but while saying, she laugh and talk at the same time in the mic. its sounds funny la. den the om did the same thing sia! i;ll take a picture of the om some day.

p.s. he dont like competition.

okay...! steph, deepika, randy and deon are in MI. kenneth and yong soon aso. oh! danny and kah leong as well.

steph, randy, deon, deepika and i saw quite a few ppl who look like everyone.. ppl like daniela, omella, kang xian.. haha!. oh! got this guy.. his lips look so full and is like he sucks cup everyday sia.. like you know..you suck a cup with holding the cup.. his marking is permament! lol. xD haha.

hmmmm. what else.. hmm. gums attack was cute. aka clarina. she's one of our clan leader. she a ballerina as well.! cool arh.. i'll try post the pictures. =) oh! abt cca. i'm aiming for tennis. alright! though i'm physically weak.. haha!

2009-01-20T14:41:00.004+08:00

wooo~ i went missing for soooo long! lets see, i dint even talk abt my prom. shit! It was fun la. okay!! abt my holidays before i took my o level results.
Hmmm.. for the first few months, was busy calling those big yet small companies for orders. Arhg.. this is where oral skills and letter writing skills come in. After that. . paper work flooded me. being an entreprenur isnt easy. haha! how to spell?? =x

ALRIGHT! RESULT TIME!
hmmm.. did as bad as prelim. haha! congrates to ying ling, top student. haha. she must be over the moon. (sun leh? haha. nonsense.) den to ziqi and jun feng as well.

well, i wanted to go to MI. But after some brain washing sections with teachers, friends and aunties and uncles and father and mother and sister and grandmother and grandfather and great-grandfather and great-grandmother and the list goes on... CRAP! but serioulsy, after much consideration and other's opinions, i still chose MI. lol. it was a difficult decission though. (others might think how difficult can it be. haha. maybe they had thier mind made up centuries ago, kiasu, or they dint want to think that far.)

far far away island~~ lalala

AND!!
is anyone goin to the sec 5 thing?? update me. =)

BIRTHDAY!
happy belated birthday to :
glenn(1 jan) who turned 17 this year
jasmine (3 jan) who turned 18 this year
liuhui (14 jan) who turned 20 this year
and andy (16 jan) who turned 20 this year.

2008-11-17T19:11:00.002+08:00

i'm tired. . arent u? @#$%^&*

being more hypo then hyper. went down to my dad's restaurant and i had my first meal at 2.30pm today, the ultimate horfan!! wooot~ alright going out ltr to find my promyyy dress. hopefully i will be able to. jia you! x)

had been craving for ice-creammmm. had them daily.
woahh.. gaining weight in process//

2008-11-17T00:48:00.004+08:00

first one is taken aft combine science mcq paper. =)

second one is during today's bbq

went down to town pass few days in search for my promy dress.
dint buy anything.. =(

left with 4 days . . .

help

i wanted a yellow dress. haha! cool arh. i love yellow, orange.

(faiznur in green, aini in red)
HAPPY BELATED 17TH BIRTHDAY TO FAIZNUR!!

just came back from class bbq at east coast park. received lotsa lame cum dumb msg from this hansheng aka "zhong". sharing his ghost stories abt ECP. -.-

i went there late.. hmm abt 9 plus

had a few satay sticks

played a few songs on the guitar

played cards for 5 min

and poof, i'm gone. hahas.

farah looking bored.. hee.

2008-11-10T14:24:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy

okay, today!! ziqi birthday. HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY! hmmm.. lets see, i've known u for abt 5 yrs only. from sec1 till sec5. lol! so long~ like stalin 5-yr plan arh. Zzz no link. =x

tml having combine science paper 1. good luck !! =)) 13th goin to search for prom dress. no time deh~!~! 15th FAIZNUR BIRTHDAY! happy 17th birthday in advance.